Tuesday, July 17, 2007


they did work, sort of, I just found them at the bottom of this page. Now how did they get there? I expected them to be on the right side, alongside the posts.

I do have to work on my writing today. I woke her yesterday, oh and she was very angry with me. I don't know her name, but her wrath is scary. "Wasted time!". " Wasted time!". Her breath hot on my neck, but burning like ice, as it sent chills though me. Her screams not to be heard by anyone but me, a vast wind, tearing through my cells, threatening my very existence.
She said I had a choice, for she would not be caged forever, I could either jump to something, or I would fall to madness.
I don't know if it is true. I am mostly in control, but she does gain in power now and then, and my equilibrium is off, and I can't steady myself. I must appease her. I over-ate yesterday, trying to disract myself and drown her out, but I don't want to live that way. Trying to drown out, what I don't want to hear, to know, to feel. Besides she will be there still. And she might just shake me all the harder, to gain my attention. And I do not wish to be shook at all.

read and write, read, and write. Read, read read, a great world of ideas rests between hundreds of pages, and I collect but don't read them. Write, write, write, a world swirls inside me, I watch it, but don't write it down, capturing it on page, releasing it from inside me, freedom gained for us both in the liberation. Read, read, read. Write, write, write.

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