Friday, May 16, 2008
the rain hums on
mixing with the sound of the fish tank
and the fan upstairs
Bob sleeps on and on
* update, just got back from the kitchen, the perpetual dripping sound is not the fish tank filter, but water coming down the chimney and landing in the bucket I placed in the fireplace.
(kind of the opposite of a warming fire)
I have a doctors appointment for Tuesday, now that I have finally made one, I can't wait to go. I can't wait to set my mind at ease and not waste any more time and energy concerned that this or that might be "something". I really think this has been stealing my focus lately (since mid-Feb.), even out in the garden where I am usually really happy and free, these thoughts and concerns come in and steal my energy. I worry when I dig holes, and haul dirt, that I will strain something, and then my chest will ache more, and then it will be harder to sleep at night, because it will make me uneasy. It is a drag and I am tired of dragging these concerns around, so I intend to drop them off Tuesday afternoon, and come home without them.